2018 May Artist 五月艺术家 Pau Setphens
I used to have a ceramics workshop, a big one, I thought that was what I wanted, being a designer, having a workshop, then an empire and conquer the world. I started at the age of 23 and when I turned 27 I found out that that wasn´t precisely what I wanted. I stop being creative, I felt always stressed out and I was always worried about money.
So I closed in February 2016. Some people might say I failed, say that I gave up to fast and too easily. Maybe I did. Maybe I could have improved. Maybe things were going to change. Maybe the next big thing was just around the corner. I don’t know and I am not going to find out. It doesn’t matter anymore. I wanted a change in my life, I wanted something new….
So I started looking for a job at some studio. When they asked for my CV I realized that it was hard for me to define myself in a professional work related way. Am I a designer, am I a ceramicist or am I an entrepreneur? Probably I am a bit of all. I like to explore, try new things and travel. I like to work in teams, but at the same moment enjoy working on my projects by myself. I like to teach, to share my knowledge, but I also enjoy being taught new things. Anyways, as it turned out, studios were not looking for somebody with a profile like mine. I received denials, always wrapped in compliments for my work, but nevertheless denials. So of course at the beginning, I felt disappointed. So what is it I can do, what is it I want to do?
In the quest of finding my purpose in life I asked myself a lot of questions, what are you good at?, how do you see yourself in 5 years?, What do you like to do and what are you willing to give to have it?
I got to the conclusion that I want to be a storyteller of creativity. I decided that I will try to get back into the entrepreneur business, being my own boss and thus keeping my flexibility. I want to collaborate with people not only in México but around the globe. Where ever life will take me, I want to enjoy the process of getting to know a new culture, a new language, and new people.
I am just getting started and my first journey will take me to a very different country that is certainly very different from Mexico. At the beginning of February, I will move to Gdansk in the north of Poland. I am very excited about what lies ahead and I if you are too, I welcome you to become followers, collaborators or maybe even friends.